This should be easy... right?

All my life I've been the type to bottle something up when it bothers me. As a result, I am really good at covering things up. In fact, most people have no idea when I am on the brink of snapping, because most people don't know me well enough to pick up on the little signs. But anyway, as of the last couple years, I've been under the persuasion that bottling emotions and problems is a bad idea, so I've been very big on confronting every issue that comes up, when it comes up.

Honestly, I'm beginning to wonder if I wasn't right all along. The more I look at the results of confrontation, the more I see the same things as bottling. The only real difference that I notice is that I am no longer the only person that is upset or angry or whatever the case may be. Nothing really changes, does it?

If I choose to keep it to myself, I get over it eventually. If I deal with it and the person that is part of it, I get over it eventually. But confrontation and pain and discomfort is designed to bring change, is it not?

Then why is all that is left in it's wake more pain, and more anger and bitterness? Why is confrontation not doing what it's supposed to be doing?? Why can't I just bottle everything up like I used to?

Maybe because I want to do everything in my own strength. Maybe because I haven't changed anything except the way in which I try to solve my own problems. Maybe because I am not leaving my garbage up to the only one who can resolve it.

And so I find myself at a crossroad... do what I know is right... or try again and doom myself to another failure.